At my age most people would be saying that I know
nothing about hard times or what it's like to go through times where you
don't think you can keep going. But the truth is that I wish I didn't
know what I do sometimes, and I wish that I wouldn't have seen what I
have. I don't regret it because it's made me who I am, and I like who
I've become and wouldn't change it.
In my life I have seen my dad
have bone cancer, and losing him a month before my senior year. I've
seen my mom lose her job, and lose hope of what her life is going to be.
I've battle depression, so severe that I was suicidal. I've a friend to
suicide. I lost aunts and uncles. I've been abused, mentally,
emotionally, and physically. I had been betrayed by the people who were
supposed to care for me the most, aside from family of course. I moved
away from the only place I knew, and have hardly gotten to see my
siblings since. I've seen my mom go through so much depression. I pay my
own way through college and had been denied for loans not knowing how I
was going to pay. Yet through all of this I never lost my faith in God.
And because of this His mercy and grace has been poured out to me
abundantly. Where my father emotionally abused me, and then died, God
has loved me and daily reminds me and shows me His great love. Where my
mom lost hope and had depression, God showed me hope. Where I battle
depression and suicidal thoughts, God gave my a hope for my future and a
strength and courage to keep living. Where I lost people important in
my life, God gave me joy to see life. Where I was abused, God gave me
love, peace, grace, and self-confidence. Where I was betrayed, God tells
me that He will never leave me or forsake me. Where I miss my family,
God comforts me. Where I saw no funds and no way, God gave me a way and
showed His blessings.
I hope that you can find strength and a way
to keep going. No I don't know what you're going through but I do know
that you can do it.
Courage is something most people don't think they have, but if you keep pressing on keep finding hope you can go through whatever it is. And I think you are so courageous to keep going even when you don't see a way.
